I waited and waited for you Jesus!

This entire holiday season from Thanksgiving til Christmas Eve I was searching high and low for my spirit. My husband was laid off from his job for the first time in 10 years. My sister Jackie lost her job in February, she is still unemployed. My sister-in-law lost her job 9in March and then was rehired but only part time without insurance (she has 2 children). Then, the kicker was that that same SIL's husband was laid off on Christmas Eve. I think that these events along with the bad communication with Mr. Fish and the older fish kids not listening at all and the youngest of the fish children not sleeping at all have put me in a bad place. I prayed that come Christmas Eve mass I would be filled with the spirit and feel so at peace. While I was at church I did feel it for a short time...the happiness that is supposed to fill your heart this time of year. Just as quick as it came, it was gone. Christmas Day I had a terrible case of feeling sorry for myself, which is ridiculous because if you know me you know I feel like the most blessed person EVER!

When we walked into our mud room (after a rough drive back from being with our parents and families for Christmas) it hit me like a ton of bricks.

There were 4 packages. 2 for S and 2 for V. Wrapped up so beautifully with bows and a label with their names typed out on a computer. I didn't really think about what they could be and thought for sure there was a card on them. V got to hers first and opened the small box...it was a DS game. Then she started to jump around and scream at the top of her lungs yelling...WE GOT DS'S FOR CHRISTMAS! OH MY GOSH I KNOW THERE IS A DS IN THE OTHER BOX, I JUST KNOW IT!!!! S COME QUICK, WE GOT DS'S!!!! He, being the sleuth that he is, starts in with who would get them for us??? Who are they from??? Santa??? What is going on??? And then he decides oh who cares...OH MY GOSH WE BOTH OWN DS'S :) YEA US!! NOW HE IS JUMPING AROUND AND SCREAMING!!!!

I still don't know who bought them, and that is OK with me. Today in church I realized and tears filled my eyes that someone really loves us :) I was overwhelmed to think that someone thought so much of us that they would use their money ($ 250) to make our children this excited! That is a great feeling....that is a great gift and I feel so blessed to have this really good friend, even though I still don't know who did it.

So now I know that all I had to do was stop looking and just know that in the end things are not always perfect but we are truly loved. It doesn't take money spent on you to realize that you are so blessed. So now as I sit here on the couch writing this post while they both are laying here beside me playing their DS's. The Christmas music is playing, the Christmas tree is lit and here we are all together enjoying our family and that my friends is what Christmas is supposed to feel like! Thank you Jesus for finding me and for dying on the cross for me!

Merry Christmas friends!