A look back...

Life is funny....can I get an Amen? Mr. Fish and I had our first date 20 years ago July 16th. We didn't start out together we started out with other people. God had a plan for us way back then. As I walked around last night and got a glimpse of our blessings sleeping I started looking back. I promised myself a long time ago that I would not look back but today I am. I can see the well laid plans that God had for us. The last 20 years have been full of ups and downs, the last couple months have been really "hilly." Today as I think about the memories it is almost like a slide show. Thinking that it was 8 years ago when Crush was born is amazing. I remember every detail about his newborn body. I can't wrap my mind around the fact that our Dory will be 10 years in August. Only old people have 10 year olds right? Not me...I am a track "star" in high school who loves the tanning bed and talking on the phone and skipping school. Not Mr. Fish...he is a baseball "star" who works too many hours at the print shop and loves baseball and could fish until the cows come home. How did we become **gasp** parents of 3 blessings? 3 wonderful blessings and 20 wonderful years together. How did it happen?

As I type this and cry I am asking myself why...why are you crying? Is it that you are sad? happy? and my answer to myself? It is just the sheer "unbelieveability" of the whole thing. I'm a Mom, I pay taxes, I pay tuition, in 6 years my kid will be driving. WHAT? I grabbed Crush this morning and made him promise he will always love me. That they will always love me. That I will always have Mr. Fish to lean on and God will never take him from me. I gotta go first :) He can handle loss, I can't.

Thanks for listening.